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[23 Feb 2005|03:39pm] |
I can't believe February is almost over. I'm glad though. One more month closer to this summer! This amazing summer, I am so much looking forward to. The wedding plans are coming together a little more everyday. Being the maid of honor I have to plan her shower, which is coming along. It'll be fun!
School's going good. The semester feels like real college. Real tests, homework. It's a lot harder and takes up a lot more of my time, but I think it's good. I need some preparation for U of A. I just hope I can keep up my grades. This college-like semester has definitely been hard on me so far!
Today while at the gas station there was a marine getting gas next to me. He was all dressed in his uniform. And while he was waiting for his car to fill up this older man walked up to him and said, "Can I shake your hand?" so he did, and then he said something like Thank you so much. The old man looked so grateful and the marine looked so proud. It really made my day to see that. I wish I had the nerve to walk up to everyone I see in uniform and do the same thing.
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[14 Feb 2005|05:17pm] |
Valentine's Day this, Valentine's Day that. I'm sick of it!!!
Doesn't anyone care that it's Arizona's birthday!
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[31 Jan 2005|10:26pm] |
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I wish I knew why right now I feel so unhappy inside.
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[24 Jan 2005|12:40am] |
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I'm lonely. And I sat here tonight and thought about what I really wanted and I figured it out.
"I wanna be with someone that loves me the way I thought you did."
If that makes any sense, which I'm sure to most of you it doesn't. But to me it seems perfectly true and real. And that's what I want.
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[10 Jan 2005|01:30am] |
This weekend was a lot of fun. Had adventures in the snow with my best friends!
I have a couple of pictures from this weekend that Lauren took and developed for me. (HAHA)
( click for pictures )
Snow is beautiful!!!
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[05 Jan 2005|10:32pm] |
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It's the new year. Thank goodness. Not that there's been much of a change in my life in the past 5 days. I guess it's just the feeling of hope. The feeling that this year could be better than the last. I really need this year to be better.
Things suck with my sisters right now. But really when do they not suck. It's so hard for me to get my point across when it's constantly a two against one situation. They don't understand me, nor do they want to. They don't even try to see my point, or put themselves in my shoes. They are too considered with sticking up for each other and ganging up on me. Nothing ever changes when it comes to the two of them I always walk away feeling like the bad guy.
Being the new year and all I'm trying really hard not to let myself get down. Not to think about things or people from the past, but it is oh so hard. I just wanna come to that point when everything's ok. Or at least the point when you feel good, even when everything's not ok.
I'm really looking forward to getting away with my friends this weekend. Hopefully everything works out ok and the weather permits. We'll see I guess. Cross your fingers.
Speaking of this weekend if everything goes as plans we will be leaving at around three, either from my work or I'll come home, we should discuss that. SnowBowl is out of the question because our vehicles are not prepared for that, and because I have worrisome parents. So the plan is to spend the weekend at my cabin, in the snow, having fun. And everyone going is gonna have to put money in to pay for my cabin to be opened and closed. It's looking at about $20, but we'll talk about all this more later I'm sure.
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| Goodbye 2004 |
[31 Dec 2004|02:51pm] |
I have no boy to kiss at midnight, no crazy parties, and I'll be spending the evening with me family. For many 18 year old girls that would be a devasting way to spend New Year's Eve, but I'm surprising excited about it. Minus the fact that I won't get to spend it with my friends, which actually makes me sadder than you know. And the fact that I don't have a boy to kiss. :(
I defintely couldn't be more ready for a the new year. I want 2004 to be over and I wanna start fresh. Don't you wish things really worked like that. Don't you wish that all your problems could be gone and you could really start new in a matter of day.
I'm ready to leave 2004 behind. It had plenty of good times, but it sucks because the bad times overshawdow that. And the bad times were definitely bad. Nothing has ever felt worse.
I'm so excited about this upcoming year. So many things to look forward to. A lot of changes. But everything is so exciting, so scary. I can't wait!!
I want a new start, a new year. Bring on 2005!
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[30 Dec 2004|02:59am] |
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I have to get up tomorrow to go to work. But it seems I have become incapable of falling asleep before 4am.
This Christmas was actually pretty good. Much different than last year for many reasons, but it was still good.
I love spending time with my friends. Even just hanging out watching a movie and talking. I love that. I miss it. I'm really excited to go to the cabin, play in the snow and snowboard with my friends.
I'm a hypocrite, but I can't help how I feel. It happens to everyone. Nobody is any different than anyone else. I just never realized how much it sucks to be on the other end of the situation. Oh well.
New Year's Eve is basically tomorrow, and I really don't have any plans. HA It's okay though, we'll figure something out I'm sure.
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[21 Dec 2004|01:45am] |
I had an awesome day today with my best friend. We braved the malls and did some Christmas shopping. I'm basically, almost done with everyone, which I'm stoked about. :) Tomorrow is work, 12-5, not too bad!
I've had a really amazing couple of days. I'm so happy my friends are home!!!!
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| CIS |
[13 Dec 2004|03:45pm] |
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So the test that I stayed up untill 3am studying for. I got a 52%. Yeah that sucks. Oh well, I still scored a B in the class and the best thing of all, it's DUNZO!
One more final Thursday. EDU.
Time for some sleep, I hope.
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[09 Dec 2004|09:48pm] |
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Today was my last math class. I got an A. :) Just finished my english essay, which will be turned in tomorrow.
Now I only have class tomorrow, my CIS final next Monday, and my EDU final Thursday. It's almost over!
Thank God!
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[05 Dec 2004|12:12pm] |
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Do you ever just get a feeling of sadness overcome you? Seemingly for no reason at all, almost out of nowhere. Like you could just start crying at the drop of a hat. I hate that. :(
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[02 Dec 2004|01:04pm] |
It's December. I love December.
School's getting quite busy. I have a lot of assignments due this week, and then most of week week will be preparing for finals. I'm hoping to do good, but we'll see how everything goes. I'm very excited this semester is over though. I can't wait for winter break.
It's so hard to believe that the first semester of my first year in college is almost over. Times goes by so fast. I can't believe how much has changed in the past 7 months. Crazy.
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[15 Nov 2004|11:45am] |
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Getting a 50% on a test that you actually studied for sucks.
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| It's official!! |
[05 Nov 2004|05:49pm] |
I don't know if it'll show up, but it's my Certificate of Admission from the University Of Arizona!
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| GO VOTE |
[02 Nov 2004|01:36pm] |
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I'm at work. I'm bored. Only 3 more hours. Then I'm going to vote, which is exciting. Then I need to start and finish my english essay, which isn't exciting. I need to stop procrastinating so much on these english assignments. It's not good!
This weekend was awesome, I had so much fun. Now I won't see my friends till around Thanksgiving. This makes me sad, but I know time will go by fast, or at least I can hope.
P.S. The guy in my math class that I have a huge crush on. He's voting for Bush. :) Could he get more perfect!!
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[27 Oct 2004|10:40pm] |
So my Mom's now started the "I don't want to you go away for college so I'm gonna pick fights with you all the time" phase.
Tonight we had a fight about dinner. I probably said something I shouldn't have, because apparently I "insulted" her, but I can't help but be defensive. She starts running her mouth about how I'm never going to get a home cooked meal again, and how I'm going to have to find food for myself everyday, and it's going to suck, and I might as well not go. Blah, blah, blah. Well I said something along the lines of, I'm basically used to making myself food everyday because you cook like once a week. Bad move. We got into a big yelling match about how I don't appreciate my Mother, and life is going to be hell when I move out.
It really kills me. I'm scared out of my mind to move out and go to a university. I'm scared about my classes, I'm scared of taking care of myself and my home, I'm scared to not be with my family. But if I sat around everyday and thought about how hard it's going to be, and how scared I am I'd go insane. So instead I choose to think about the positive. But the harder I think about or speak about the positive the more my Mom puts me down. She acts like she really thinks I can't do it. I can't survive on my own, and that makes me feel like crap. I know I can do this, I just need some support! And that's something I'm not getting right now.
I'll miss my Mom and my family more than anything when I do end up leaving, but I just know this is something I need to do. It's something I really want to do. But that in no way means that I need to, or want to leave my family. I don't think she gets that....
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| yay College |
[26 Oct 2004|09:24pm] |
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I registered for my spring semester classes today. Pretty good schedule. On M,W,F I'll have Math from 9:00-9:50, and then American National Government from 10:00-10:50. Tuesday I'll have Math from 9:00-9:50, Art History from 10:00-11:15, and Environmental Biology from 11:30-12:50. And then on Thursday I'll have Math 9:00-9:50, Art History 10:00-11:15, Environmental Biology 11:30-12:50, and then my Biology Lab from 1:00-3:50. So Thursday will be one hell of a long day. I'll definitely be busy next semester!
Now I'll have to figure out my work schedule which wouldn't be so bad if I didn't still want to continue volunteering at the elementary school. So I may be cutting my work week down to only twice a week. It stresses me out, because I really need to be making as much money as possible, but I really love being at the elementary school. I guess we'll see what happens.
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